Marion got the manicure Kristoph said she should have,
and with an easier heart than before she went with Aineytta and Lily to
the Fashion House to choose not one, but two outfits now. Because it was
unthinkable, they told her, to wear the same outfit to two social functions
in the same week. She protested that one was only a family dinner and
that it was a waste of money, but her resolve crumbled as she talked with
the designer about what would suit her, and suit the occasions she was
dressing for.
“I’ll NEVER get used to this,” she said
when they were eating lunch at the Conservatory and looking over the sketches
of her proposed new outfits.
“Yes, you will,” Aineytta assured her. “I did. My goodness,
the first time I went to the Fashion House as a client I was terrified.
I was wearing one of Kristoph’s sister’s dresses and I am
sure the designer KNEW that. But by the end of the day they had designed
me an entire wardrobe.
“Besides,” Lily said. “You DO need two different dresses.
A dinner and a reception are different events entirely.” Marion
was still dubious. Lily smiled. “Think of it this way, then. The
designer and seamstresses and the young girl who picks up the threads
and sweeps the floor will all get paid more for making you TWO dresses
than just one. THEY thank you for indulging yourself. And so will Kristoph.
Yes, I know he loves you for your mind, not your body. But he is a MAN.
He will appreciate you in the finest gowns in southern Gallifrey.”
After that, she could hardly dispute them. She began to enjoy herself
a little more. On the evening of the family dinner she was happy to allow
the maids to help her do her hair and make up and dress her in the dinner
dress and when she descended the stairs into the hallway she felt like
Cinderella turning heads at the Prince’s Ball.
Kristoph was the only one to see her descend. The rest of the family were
in the drawing room. But he was waiting at the foot of the stairs, resplendent
in a robe of black and silver. As she reached the bottom of the stairs
he reached out his arm to her formally.
“That dress is beautiful,” he said. “And quite original,
too. Nobody else on Gallifrey would have thought of that style. Though
you can be sure they will all want one now.”
For the dinner dress, she had gone away from the formal gowns of Gallifrey,
with rich fabrics heavy with embroidery. Instead she had chosen a simple
black satin with silver trimmings that by coincidence matched Kristoph’s
outfit exactly. Li Tuo would call it a cheongsam dress. It was in the
style she had seen worn by Li’s princesses and concubines and lovers
in the portraits and drawings he kept in a secret place in his house.
He had shown them to her many times, speaking in bittersweet tones of
all of the women who had made his millennia long exile a little less lonely
from time to time. The dress had a high neckline and round collar with
short sleeves that covered the top of her arms. It was a slim fit, accentuating
her figure and the skirt was straight and tight, slit to the thigh to
allow her to walk freely, unlike Li’s ladies who would have had
to take very small steps.
Kristoph kissed her cheek and squeezed her hand before he brought her
through to the drawing room. The sight of so many people almost made her
courage fail, but Kristoph brought her to where his father sat with Aineytta.
The elderly Lord de Lœngbærrow looked a little weary around the eyes,
but when Kristoph presented her to him he spoke clearly and vigorously.
“I am delighted to meet you, my dear,” he said. “I have
been told so much about you. I am sorry this is the first time we have
been able to talk.”
“I am glad to meet you, sir,” Marion answered.
“Sir?” His Lordship smiled graciously. “You
are not one of my employees. You are the woman my son loves and has chosen
to be his wife. I understand that you have no parents of your own, and
I would be honoured if you would call me father.”
That just about did it for Marion’s nerves. She
didn’t know whether to laugh or cry. But she didn’t have time
to do either as she was introduced to the rest of her ‘family’.
Remonte, Kristoph’s brother she already knew. But this was the first
time she had met his wife. A few years ago, being introduced to such an
immaculately dressed and elegantly poised woman as Idell de Lœngbærrow
would have made her feel thoroughly inadequate. Her outfit was maternity
style. When Marion asked the obvious question ‘when is the baby
due” she was initially surprised that the answer was ‘another
eight months’ before she remembered that a Gallifreyan pregnancy
was nearly twice as long as a Human one. She wondered how tiring it must
be to carry such a burden for so long, but she had almost no time to think
about it before she was introduced to more relatives.
“This is my eldest sister,” Kristoph told her. “Oriana,
my dear, this is Marion, my future wife.”
Oriana, who was, like her sister in law, immaculately dressed and made
up, was perfectly polite to Marion, but stiff and formal. She couldn’t
be sure from that first meeting if she liked her or not. But the next
introduction was more reassuring.
“My aunt Thedera,” Kristoph said, and Marion found herself
smiling in response to the perfectly natural smile of this lady. She sat
next to Aineytta and immediately drew Marion into conversation. Marion
mentioned the school she had visited and discovered that Thedera was a
patron of it, visiting often and giving prizes to the children for excellence
in their work.
“They are always so well-behaved and polite to me,” she said.
“I think it is lovely that you were able to just sit and read with
them and have them talk to you. You must be a natural teacher, Marion.”
“It’s what I have always wanted to do, teach,” she said.
“But if I have to be Lady de Lœngbærrow I don’t suppose
I will.”
“You can do anything you want to do,” Thedera told her. “You’ve
got the brains for it. Look at Oriana there, and Idell. They know how
to produce heirs for their husbands and hold fashionable luncheons. You’ll
always be smarter than them. And…” Thedera bent closer and
whispered. “You have better taste in dresses.”
Marion laughed softly. She wasn’t sure that was true, but it was
nice to feel that somebody was on her side. She didn’t really think
Oriana and Idell WERE.
The last dinner guests arrived as Marion talked with Thedera. All the
men stood politely to greet Lady Lilliana D’Argenlunna D’Alba
and Kristoph and his father both went to take the hands of the lady who
arrived with her.
Marion tried not to stare, but she had been quite taken aback by the sight
of Renita de Lœngbærrow. When Kristoph spoke of her as belonging
to a closed ‘Sisterhood’ she imagined somebody quite plain
in black or grey and sensible shoes. But Renita looked like a fairy creature.
She was covered from head to foot in pastel coloured layers of sheer silk
that made her seem to float as she walked. Marion looked down and saw
that her small, delicate looking feet were in silver-coloured sandals
and then up to her veiled face. Only her eyes were showing at first, until
Kristoph reached and lifted the veil and kissed her affectionately on
the cheek.
“My favourite sister,” he told her with a wide smile. “I
am so glad you could come tonight.”
Marion was completely at a loss to know how to talk to Renita. She seemed
so serene and remote from all the fashionable people around here. She
clearly adored Kristoph, though, and in THAT she and Marion had something
in common. Kristoph seemed to treat her far differently than anyone else
in his family. He held her hand gently and though they didn’t say
anything out loud, Marion thought they were having a very long conversation
telepathically. When Renita’s face crinkled into laughter she was
sure of it. Kristoph laughed, too. And then caught Marion’s eye
and smiled at her.
“I am sorry to neglect you,” he said. “But
I do see Renita so rarely. And when I do… Reading her mind is like
walking in the quiet cloister of a monastery. She revives my spirit just
by her own goodness.”
“You, also, my brother.” She answered. “I
can see such a change in you. You ARE very much in love. I never thought
you would EVER allow yourself the chance. I’m glad. Now you go and
look after our mother and I shall get to know Marion.”
She smiled so sweetly as she took her hand and brought
her to a window seat where they sat and watched the fountain in the garden
uplit at night by coloured lanterns.
“It’s all right,” she said. “You
ARE allowed to talk to me. I am not in the cloister now.”
“Kristoph is very fond of you,” she managed
to say. “His eyes lit up when he saw you come in.”
“He was always that way. When I was a child he was
always so attentive to me. Whenever he came home from the Academy he would
have a little gift for me. He called me his favourite girl. He was so
proud when I chose the contemplative life. He said I was the best of us
all.” She laughed softly. “I think my brother always believed
I was too precious to be merely a Time Lord’s wife. He wanted more
for me. I don’t think I would have made a good wife, anyway. My
mind is too far away. I am too used to contemplation. Being mistress of
a house, ordering servants, holding luncheons and dinners would be so
very mundane.”
“I’m not sure I could do that, either,”
Marion said. “But not for the same reasons as you. But… I’m
trying to imagine Kristoph as a student, as a young man. What was he like?”
“He was delightful,” Renita answered. “A
handsome charmer. You know that he and Lady Lily were in love, of course?
But if they were not I believe the womanhood of Gallifrey would have fallen
at his feet. And he laughed all the time. He read poetry and sang. He
WROTE poetry, and he thought beautiful thoughts. I thought he, too, would
have chosen contemplation after he transcended. But the war came. And
he felt it his duty to defend our world. And it needed defending. It was
a dark time. We all lived in fear of invasion and defeat and wondered
what would become of our lives if that should happen. Oh, the Cloister
was a place of solace for my grief for a long time. Then he was returned
to us, and there was a new grief. Because he was so changed. He wasn’t
the same man. He didn’t sing any more. His very thoughts were different.
Even when he was recovered, body and soul, he had lost something. His
thoughts were not beautiful any more. For a little while he took himself
to the brotherhood on the mountain. He tried to find inner peace, but
it eluded him. He was changed too much. He had only one burning passion.
Patriotism. He gave himself to the service of our world in any way it
called him, even if it cost his soul.”
“I wish I had known him before he was wounded so
grievously,” Marion said.
“But you do,” Renita assured her. “The
light is back in his hearts, in his mind. The darkness is there, too.
But he has the light within him. I can see it, even now.”
Renita turned and looked at her brother as he talked with
his aunt and his mother. He was smiling, and the smile was in his eyes
as well as his mouth.
“Look,” Renita said. And she put her slender
hand on Marion’s forehead. It felt cool against her, and she felt
as she did when Kristoph entered her mind. That feeling of quicksilver
running through her brain. Renita’s eyes were closed, yet Marion
had the feeling she didn’t need them open to see with. And that
she could see much more and much further than anyone.
Then her own mind’s eye blotted out her ordinary
vision and she found herself looking at a slow kaleidoscope of colour
and patterns and felt a wonderful peace and serenity and utter happiness
envelop her. She felt as if she was hearing the most exquisite poetry,
the most beautiful music, and the sweetest sounds of nature, waterfalls
and birdsong, gentle waves on a seashore. If she let herself concentrate,
she knew she was still hearing the ordinary noises of a room full of people,
but when she relaxed her mind it was filled with this serenity.
And she knew where it came from. She recognised a resonance
in it. It was the same source as the beautiful lovemaking of the mind
she had experienced. It was Kristoph whose mind was filled with that serenity.
“That’s how he used to be,” Renita told
her when she gently withdrew and the reality around them crowded back.
“He is whole again. And I think we have you to thank for it. You
mended him.”
“I didn’t think I did anything,” Marion
answered. “I was the one who was hopeless until he found me. I didn’t
think he needed me so much.”
“Oh, he did,” Renita told her. “You gave
each other what was missing from your souls. You are BOTH complete now.”
Renita smiled radiantly and Marion felt herself smiling,
too. They were both looking at the object of their affections, Kristoph.
He, in his turn, looked at them and as he smiled back at them Marion didn’t
need any intervention from Renita to feel what was in his mind.
The butler announced to them that dinner was served and
Kristoph took Marion’s arm and his sister’s, too, as they
all stepped through to the beautiful dining room with a great table elegantly
laid with silver and china and flower arrangements. Renita and Thedera
sat either side of Marion, with Kristoph opposite her. Lily and his mother
were beside him. His father, of course, was at the head of the table.
There was a sort of brief moment before they began to eat,
that was, Marion supposed, a little like saying Grace on Earth. It wasn’t
a prayer as such, just an invocation of goodwill among those gathered
together. And then the waiters served the meal.
As they ate their first course, Remonte raised his glass
and proposed a toast to Lord de Lœngbærrow and his continued
health, and everyone was happy to do so. Kristoph followed it with one
welcoming Marion to their family.
It was a pleasant meal. Marion enjoyed it. She appreciated the attempts
by most of the family to draw her into their conversations, even though
they knew she was new to the planet and not able to comment on aspects
of their political life or society. Remonte was the one who brought up
the fact that she had made a study of Gallifreyan literature and she was
able to talk about that confidently.
“I have been trying to understand your history, too,” Marion
said. “It’s very interesting but I do get a bit confused by
the system of dates. I keep trying to convert the Gallifreyan years mentally
to Earth ones and I don’t think it is possible. But it does seem
as if Gallifrey was already very technically advanced before humans were
even learning to write.”
“That IS true,” Lord de Lœngbærrow told her. “But
it is complicated by the fact that Gallifrey exists in a different time
frame to your world. Time passes more slowly here than in the rest of
the galaxy.”
Marion was puzzled.
“But… then that means that when Kristoph is away, he is away
less time here than he is in his own personal time? I mean… Oh dear,
I’m not making much sense am I?”
“No, you’re making perfect sense,” his Lordship assured
her. Because of all his travels offworld my eldest son is actually older
than his mother in our years.”
Marion still didn’t get it. But nobody thought she was stupid for
not grasping the concept. Thedera told her it was something they got used
to in their family, because Kristoph had spent so much time away from
them, between his former work and his diplomatic work.
“He’s still my boy,” Aineytta said, proudly. “I
only hope he does come home a bit more often in future. Perhaps to stay
finally?”
“Mama,” Kristoph chided her. “You know that I am happy
living on Earth with Marion. We will visit. But you must understand…”
“And YOU must understand, Brother,” Remonte said in a tone
that was more serious than any before in what had been a pleasant conversation.
“YOU are the heir. It is time you lived up to your responsibilities.
I cannot carry them for you forever.”
There were some sharp looks between Kristoph and his brother,
and between both men and their father. The women of the family, too, exchanged
glances. Nobody explained to Marion what Remonte had meant. Thedera broke
the tension by commenting to Lily about a play they had both seen in the
Capitol and the light air of the dinner conversation was resumed.
But later, when the guests had departed and Kristoph managed
to get Marion alone in the drawing room with a glass of sherry to round
off the evening she asked him about that outburst from Remonte.
“My brother has been carrying much of the responsibility
for the estate, and for family matters since my father’s illness.
By rights, it should have been MY role. He doesn’t resent the duty.
I think Idell does. I think she regrets marrying a second son and not
having the chance to be ‘Lady’ de Lœngbærrow. But
Remonte is a good man. If he seemed sharp when he spoke, it is only because
he HAS been worried about our father of late.”
“They ALL want you to return to live here permanently, don’t
they?” Marion said to him. “Your mother and Thedera and Renita
just miss you like mad and want to shower you in affection. But the others
want you here for other reasons.”
“I want to be with you,” Kristoph assured her. “And
you want to live on Earth. You want me to be Kristoph de Leon, literary
teacher.”
“Yes.”
“I told you before, your happiness comes first. My family is important
to me, but you are going to be my wife, the mother of my children. And
you come first. I will do nothing that you are not happy with. I promise
you, that. And THIS time I WILL keep that promise.”
“I know you will,” she told him.
But did she have the right to hold him to that promise,
she wondered. And how long would he be content to be a teacher of English
literature in Liverpool when he had so much calling him home to Gallifrey?
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